luster

Kicking 'round pieces
Watch how it scatters
The optimism of youth
Finally shatters

It's no use
No will left to muster
Every little shard
Has lost its luster

The days slim down
I'm growing tired
Rotting on the shelf
Until I'm expired

Fooled by the heart
And tread all over
Crows feast on the guts
Then flock to another

Songs dress it up pretty
Poets write the delusion
The masses succumb
To the greatest illusion

With a gilded coat
And a core made of tin
Shaped like a heart
Pulsing with sin

I finally found love
And accepted the abuse
Held down and restrained
Then asked why I'm no use

It was always shut up
And hold it against you
Damned if you do
And damned if you don't too

On my knees
Accepting loss
The devil approaches
Wearing a cross

I found safety
In being alone
Call it reclusive
I call it home

Sometimes I wish
For this to end
But for now I pray to God
I never find love again